i once again tried to be mysterious.
it didn’t work out to say the least. i think it’s was a big stretch for me to ever shut up about anything, because i just love to talk and share and hear about people. but sometimes its good to like be quiet, i think i’m a big believer of evil eye. there is a negative energy out there and sometimes people react to your good news with jealousy or envy and that affects your energy.
so the best way to keep things the way it is, is it to keep it to yourself. and for those who say this is bs
i wish i could agree but unfortunately every time i say something to more than like 2 people, it fails. and boom i’m ghosted by the company, person, or even just the concept i was happy about.
so i like to remember this when i almost open my mouth to say something, because if i care about something it’s key to keep my mouth shut about it. but there is also something SO fun about talking with your friends about it, and giggling and bonding over your shared experiences. so the key is to tell the people you absolutely love and trust. and everyone else can find out on their own time. i didn’t follow my own advice recently, so i can only wait and see what the outcome of my blabbing is.
but i hope nothing happens, but it’s funny to believe in this and also believes that life moves in the way you believe it moves. so if something doesn’t work out, its because i wouldn’t be happy. and i think i have some reassurance knowing that. and whenever i doubt it, i just think about all the times i’ve had better offers or people come into my life.
recently i was out intellectualized. and that shocked me. i’m not who i want to be, and i think i’m doing a disservice to myself not becoming who i promised myself i would atleast try to become. so here i am, doing something i procrastinated for so long.
so if there’s something that you want to do but it just seems like so much work, just watch people do it and slowly you’ll be inspired. over the weekend i was unpacking and i listened to youtube videos on becoming yourself in your 20s, stop trying to be a cool girl, shadow work, and so many interesting topics. and i think my brain started thinking again, and i love it.
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